Birthday Boy

How do I put into words what it means that youre 7? 

I know this year has been rough. Mama and daddy moving apart and us both finding new companions. 

moving to going to 2 different houses. 

Jay moving in. 

2 new "siblings". 

I know this has been hard, but through it all youve really blossomed and so has our relationship. 

Youve opened up to me and shared hard emotions and Im so proud of how you talk to me. 

We went for your birthday to see Star Wars with Daddy and James and you wanted to sit by me and you snuggled my arm the entire time. 

Im so smitten with you and I hope you feel secure and loved and happy, amidst the hard things. 

We will be here with you forever babe. 

I love you, Im proud of you. Youre my sonshine and my soul mate. 

Happy birthday Kid. 

Polar bear jams.

Lost tooth!

:) lunch date with daddy

:)

Snuggles

:)

Oh how i miss your sweet lemon drop smile. 

I love you bugs. 

Remember this in the hard times of the world.

Holy One, our hearts are torn, broken, and battered.

Even across an ocean

from the City of Light;

Such pain, such violence, such suffering.

 

The trauma is immense, nearly unspeakable.

We know that we are called to feel the pain of humanity,

to hear the cry of the soul,

the innocent soul.

So we shall.

 

May it help us turn to love in spite of hate.

May it help us turn to trust in spite of fear.

May it help us turn to each other, people of all faiths and none, in spite of intolerance.

May it help us turn to our neighbors in need.

May it help us turn our care to the vulnerable near us.

May it help us turn our spirits to the grieving, the injured, and the traumatized.

May it help us turn to the recovery,

And to our work of becoming a world of justice and compassion. 

Turn us.  Guide our feet and hands.  Bring us to peace.

 

Amen

Babies.

When I'm with God

Make no mistake,  when I'm up in heaven with the Lord,  I'm going to be standing next to Him, beaming as I watch you and telling him,  "father, those are my kids" with the utmost pride. 

You are my everything. 

You're so tender.

4 more months until your birthday babe!

You did not want to move when he was snuggling you.
I love seeing you show love and compassion towards tiny things :) you're almost in 1st grade abs your adjusting super well.  I know things have been crazy,  but you're such a sweet boy,  with a good heart,  and I know you'll be okay.

Dinner with daddy

Pancakes!

Karate!

Daddy is getting you karate!  I'm so excited.  You are learning so well the ways of respect and the art. I'm so excited to see what happens!

My SonShine

Mama is struggling

I needed this cuddle at the end of a hard hard day.  I love you both so much and I promise. Our struggle will not be in vain.  I'm working hard for you babies!

I'll give you a life,  a house,  a family,  a stability.  Even when it's so hard at work and with daddy I'm really really trying to do the right thing.  Always.

I hope I make you proud.

Please recreate this when you're older

Do this picture again for me.  I'm smitten.  :')

Happy kinder promotion baby

A little something from daddy and i. We are so proud of you.  You were hamming it up today,  playing air piano and air saxophone like it was real.  Your smile and laugh show me your truest beauty.  I love you baby. 

My boy and his dog.

You guys are so cute!

Englewood Park

Some fun mama time.

Park fun :)

My SonShine.

I love you babe.

This is truth

I'll sacrifice for you forever,  babies.

I love you. 

I'll never be anything better

I'll never be anything better than your mother.
Nothing I do will ever full me with as much joy as being yours.
You are my lights,  my purpose, my soul.

I'm so proud of who you both are.  Always always always be you.

I love you baby

No one

Has ever loved another, in the way that I love you. 

You are everything to me. Every single thing. 

I love you fiercely and passionately. 

You're mamas whole world :')

Alton!

Mommy and daddy time seeing Alton Brown.  Friendship is still important :)

changes.

oh my loves. 

I wish i had the best news for you. 

I know that in the coming months things will be hard. 

Mama and daddy will be moving into different houses, and we wont be a family under one roof anymore. 

but i promise you this: 

we will forever be a family. 

Daddy is a wonderful daddy. 

I am the best mama that I can be. 

we love each other and we love you. 

When youre older I will tell you things about Love that I have learned along the way. 

For now I will just reassure you every day that you are loved and that I love Daddy very much even if we arent living together. 

I started my new job at the Shelter and I am so excited. 

it is wonderful to be in a place that does so much good for the community and saves lives. 

I am excited to see where it goes. 

I have my first business trip in a few months and I am dreading not seeing you guys for a week. 

but it will be okay and we will forever be strong. you will get great time with Daddy. 

I promise you that I will always act out of Love for you and your wellbeing and not let my personal feelings of hurt or pain get in the way of giving you the best life possible. 

I am so in love with both of you. and this life we 4 have in each other will be a great one. 

I love you both, deeply and with fire. 

Never fear, Mama and daddy are here. 

I love you Sonshine and Moongirl. I really really love you.