just chillin

at daddys house with you and daddy.

i love days with you.

you are such a wonderful person and are turning into a wonderful child.

blazer game tonight on tv, and then im surprising you with a blazer game in person on tuesday night!

sometimes, and especially since mahmee got pneumonia, money is tight. and i had already bought tickets for us before i got sick. i think God knew it was gonna happen but knew that you and i needed a load off from the stress of money, and blazer games are important : ]

mahmees favorite, joel przybilla, was traded: ( im sad, but we will get through this.

apparently when daddy took you to the game on Friday night you asked "Where's Joel?" and daddy told you he got traded and you said "we see Joel tomorrow?" :]

i want you to know that while its rough and hard and stressful, we will get through this together.

i can get through anything with you by my side, and we can get through anything with Daddy by our side, and all ofk us can get through anything with God on our side. ;]

life is beautiful baby, even when its hard.

More video chats....

These moments are the highlight of the days I am without you. :)

Postcard from mahmee

Just a reminder....

Proof I'm mahmee

And so so proud to be yours. :)

:)

This makes me happy. I love your toys and the remnants of you strewn about our house.

Goofing around at bathtime

:) I love playing with you boo.

Blackmail :)

You never got mistaken for a girl until you were almost 2. I don't mind. You can be my pretty little princess :)

You n daddy

Three goggles

you do this now, unprompted. its something the blazers do when they hit a three pointer...

this photo has quickly become one of my favorites.

right now youa re with daddy, i work tomorrow, and i miss you.

thank you for being my comic relief. my love. my life and soul mate.

i sure do love you baby boy.

lovely:

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go here. and remember.

never doubt it.

youre beautiful.

Your booful mahmee

When I was putting on my clothes last night, specifically my spanx to see if they fit....you came in and said "oh you're booiful mahmee!". You've said it a couple times this weekend.

Coupled with feeling a little healthier day after day it helps to have such a gentleman telling me I'm pretty. You're the greatest man alive little dude!

The convo we just had

"Juliannnnnn?"
"Whaaaaat?"
"I love youuuu!"
"I love you twooooooo"
"Thank you!"
"You're welcommmmmme."

Makes me smile in and out of my heart.

i love you.

this morning was awesome. its been awhile since i got just you and only you for the whole day. and i started today making a fire for us, and then with a good hearty breakfast of oatmeal and my first ever successful omelettes. you didnt eat the omelette but thats okay. we had fancy milk for you and coffee for mahmee.

and then we even video chatted with Auntie Jessica from California! you were so cute, you call her Auntie Stella : ]

she bought you presents for hanukkah that she is gonna get in the mail to us soon.

then we watched some tv shows and played for a little bit before you went down for a nap.

im still sickly, and coughing a bunch, but luckily im pretty sure that i am not contagious anymore, and im feeling good.

i absolutely love spending time with you.

when you woke up this morning we followed mahmees ten minute rule. we lie in bed for ten minutes so that if youre still tired you can go back to bed if you need.

you cuddled up so sweetly and kissed me lots and lots and then you asked to call daddy.

i love that you love us so much. you want to be around us all the time. you love making us proud. whenever we say "good job julian." you respond "thank you!". you get so proud of yourself and excited to make us proud that it lights me up.

youre beautiful sweetheart and i love you!

Went into your room for a minute

Came out with glasses and "pretties" and said "mahmee! Look!"

Man alive you're amazing.

Daddy let me have you for another day. I still feel sick but its times like this that make me lifted in my soul. You're so precious and and you showing affection :) you went shopping with me and did such a great job! Tomorrow will be amazing. The last time it was just you and me for days? I can't remember. I do wish it was you and daddy and me...but its okay baby. You're amazing.

todays lesson baby

"Even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth "You owe me". Just think what a love like that can do."

i hope you learn this and love it and live it.

you will always be beautiful...but love will not always be easy.

but you know what baby? it shouldnt be hard, it should just be what it is.

i love you, and theres no question about that love.

Pneumonia mahmee

I love you.

:)

You're my precious.

Feel better mahmee....

:)

Your wink

When bringing mahmee a "get well flower" today you had to give me "the wink". Apparently my inability to wink was passed onto you :)

Thank you precious. Mahmee loves you more than anything in the world and beyond.

Pneumonia. :(

yeah mahmee doesnt look so great here, kinda fallen apart a little.

mahmee has pneumonia. and when this picture was taken she thought she just had a cold, otherwise would have been FAR from you.

its hard, i wish i couild just cuddle with you.

since i started feeling sickly, you have been awesome with trying to cuddle with me; you KNOW im feeling sick. mahmee has missed 3 days in the last week of work, and you have been there to try and love me better.

i wish that i could accept your cuddles or guarantee that you wouldnt get sick.

you ask to tuck me in, and you keep coming to me saying "cuggles?" even when i tell you i cant, and thatg youj can go cuddle with aunt heather...you shake your head and say "mahmee cuggles?"

its so precious. we are down at daddys right now, so that daddy can help me with you. i feel icky buddy.

fever, and cough and chest pain and body aches and sleeping a lot.

i hope you dont get it, i pray yuou dont get it. i love you, and im gonna rest up so next week im back to the best mahmee ever for you. and we'll go play soccer : ]

Just a note.

:) miss you. Excited for time with you tomorrow :)

Soccer!

Boy do you love soccer!

soccer

after dinner with daddy you and i and daddy walked across the street to see the soccer players. you loved it! you ran up to a spare ball and started kicking it....and you truly felt as if you were playing soccer : ]

it was cold, so we could only stay a few minutes, and you cried so much when we had to go. all you wanted was to play soccer.

it is beautiful to see you so passionate.

you got to see miss diane, and mr drew, and annie and hannah today. they are mahmee's friend shanes family. they think you are so smart and good!

daddy just put you in big boy underpants....we'll see how that goes : ] i love you buddy.

Cuggles

just a couple cute things...

over the past couple days ive been seeing a softer side of you.

coming and asking for "cuggles" with me, or when we were laying in bed for nap today when i came home sick, you didnt want to sleep at first so you said "can we just talk mahmee?"

it was sweet. but then you laid down and wraped your arms around my neck and just smooched me all over.

youre so very soft and kind baby.

im glad you feel love.

and im so so blessed to be one of the recipients.

we're both sick. but while im resting on the couch, youre up and playing. dont know how youj do it, but im glad yuou arent down for the count!

love you beau.

ill be honest...

the other day mahmee wasnt the best mahmee. i was hurting in my heart, and daddy and i had a talk that kind of made me sad inside.

im sorry baby, that i was so focused on my pain that i felt that i wasnt as attentive. the cuddles i got from you later were wonderful. and it was a delightful change from your behavior earlier. i could tell you were ornery because mahmee wasnt feeling so good inside.

but im so so in love with all you are baby.

youre beautiful and i wont take our time for granted. YOU are what matters love.

and im sorry.

thank you for always understanding and being the best little boy.

i love you sonshine. you are my precious!

Handsome.

Thank you for loving me. You're proactive cuddles are amazing and uplifting. Especially when mahmee had a hurt feeler day. :( I love you and you make my life a life!

Mad at me.

And that's okay. What matters is how we getg through it baby. :)

Mahmee's life mission:

my goal for life, is that by the end of it, i can look back and say i was the person i worked so hard to be. but not a day earlier; i never want to stop trying to improve myself by improving the quality of life for others. I will never be satisfied with my efforts until i hear Him say the words "You have done good, lovely."

Bathtime...

Cranky boy for bath time. But we had fun saying letters and numbers. Mahmee went to the blazer game tonight while you stayed with daddy and when you saw the game you exclaimed "mahmees there! Let's go mahmee let's go!" :) I'm glad I got to come back to you still awake so I could see you. I love you!