Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
Friday, August 9, 2013
In other news. You multiplied!
I don't have s photo of the few multiplication questions you did (12x4, 11x4, 10x3) but here are a few of the higher addition we did. You seemed to really catch on and you didn't even grow tired of learning. I'm amazed by your desire abs willingness to sit ands learn sometimes. You read a small book to mer ther other day, with words like morning, afternoon, opposites and different and I only had to help you with a few words. Today you read prodigy, thousand and wrong. You just see it in front of you. You are fascinating babe :)
Thursday, August 8, 2013
When do the days end?
"do the days go on forever mommy?" you asked me today. "do the days go on forever? or do they end sometime and then theres an explosion and the days end?"
We were sitting in the drive through for subway and you asked mea very heavy question i wasnt prepared to answer.
I choked back tears and tried to redirect you to another topic.
youre 4.
i dont want you to have the same childhood of fear that i had.
and honestly, i think if we began to discuss how fleeting life is in the grand scheme of things it would implant some terrifying inner monologue. I dont want to cry and tell you such adult things.
i dont want you to worry im going to leave you. I dont want you to worry that we will be gone.
i know we have to talk about it at some point.but right now, i want you to be blissfully happy.
and honestly baby, i dont want to think about it. the mere thought of ever not being within hugs distance is hard on me and hurts my chest, my heart, my soul.
i love you SO much.
if thats all i ever impart on you, exactly how much i do, im still doing pretty good.
love you baby.
Mahmee.
We were sitting in the drive through for subway and you asked mea very heavy question i wasnt prepared to answer.
I choked back tears and tried to redirect you to another topic.
youre 4.
i dont want you to have the same childhood of fear that i had.
and honestly, i think if we began to discuss how fleeting life is in the grand scheme of things it would implant some terrifying inner monologue. I dont want to cry and tell you such adult things.
i dont want you to worry im going to leave you. I dont want you to worry that we will be gone.
i know we have to talk about it at some point.but right now, i want you to be blissfully happy.
and honestly baby, i dont want to think about it. the mere thought of ever not being within hugs distance is hard on me and hurts my chest, my heart, my soul.
i love you SO much.
if thats all i ever impart on you, exactly how much i do, im still doing pretty good.
love you baby.
Mahmee.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Fear
If I take even just a minute to think about ever being without you, I break down. You are my world and I love you so deeply. So so deeply.
I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart. And I will not leave your heart ever, my loves.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Life.
Lessons I teach you:
(just in case you forget, or im not around to tell you.)
1. always keep change in your car for the meter or an emergency payphone call (they STILL exist) and dollars somewhere in the car for gas.
2. When you Meet The Parents, bring flowers for "mom" and a dessert or side dish if its a dinner date.
3. Julian boy, when youre married, you are responsible for not only getting your wife (or husband if you wish) a birthday gift, but also send their mother flowers. its a day she holds dear, and she will appreciate it.
4. Narae: Wear modest clothing. There is nothing more beautiful than a classy lady who knows her beauty and embraces it, without giving it all away. The type of person you attract with modest clothes is much better than the ones youll attract with immodest clothes.
5. Narae: when youre on a date, do the "check dance" where you reach for it as a silent offer to pay. let the date turn you down for paying. Also...pay some dates yourself. Id say date 4 is a good one to pay for :)
6. Jude: You should always offer to pay too. and the first few times, INSIST on it.
7. Julian, always offer your dates your coat on a cool night. for this reason, always wear long sleeve shirts (the button up ones are the shirts I find very handsome) and be mindful of the weather.
8. Julian, when it comes time to ask for your lovers hand in marriage, ask the person who is most important to them. Be that a daddy, a mumma, or even an older brother or sister. especially if she doesnt have great parents or a hard childhood, you want to make sure her family knows you love her.
9. Take the garbage bags out of the box when you buy them, and put them in the bottom of the garbage can. this saves time and means youll not forget to replace the bag.
10. Julian - just accept that taking out the garbage might just automatically be your job. embrace it :)
11. put your clothes in the dresser drawers in the order in which you put them on Daddy says.
12. Julian - flowers are great gifts. for Holidays, birthdays, Tuesdays. they are great accents to another gift. also you dont just want to give flowers when youre sorry or you have a need to (like valentines day).
13. Narae: when you are going to tell them you are pregnant. make it fun! Play a game or a special inside joke. it will be very memorable :)
14. Having children isnt scary. its wonderful. the scary thing is having one with someone you dont want to have them with or having one at a time thats less than ideal. but should you ever find yourself in that situation, know its not the child thats scary. and you can do anything if you put your mind to it. so make sure to be as responsible as possible until the time comes when you meet someone wonderful that is a great match.
15. Tell your lover 3 things every day in different ways: that you love them, that they are beautiful to you and that you appreciate something they did or just something about them.
16. its okay to go to bed angry if you have to. as long as you say I love you first.
17. buy your mom flowers. any time. :)
18. when off in college i understand if things get busy. I want you home any time you can, but i Know sometimes things come up. Just promise me that you give me every birthday. those days are the days I fell in love with you and met you and gave my life to you. and dang it i want to hold you close on every single one. :)
19. When you have a horrible day or are feeling down, get up. put clothes on. go out of the house specifically for making someones day better. go to the coffee stand, buy yourself a cup and buy one for the car behind you and write them a note. i promise you it feels good and will change your mood. if you need MORE of a pick me up, do another thing for someone.
20. Do good things OFTEN and do them anonymously. but you can always call me and tell me. i want to hear them! i seriously crave it. :)
21. put pictures up in your house. it makes it more home-y.
22. you keep those dates with mom and dad. we need those moments with you.
23. Narae - have dates with your mother in law. go to tea, go shopping, go on drives. just enjoy her company. she raised your love, and so she must be amazing right?
24. if a first date is awkward, try a second date. sometimes the first ones are PERFECT. sometimes they arent. but they could still lead to greatness.
25. Seriously dont offer more than a kiss with someone on a first date. ever. i mean, it wouldnt be a bad idea to not kiss until the second. but thats a just a thought. You never get those early days back.
26. Be passionate about your politics. Be passionate about your religion. But do those things internally. When it comes to friends, simply be passionate about character traits and how they are as humans. If they differ on something political but are a wonderful person who treats others kindly and gives freely to others, keep them around. You dont want to end up losing good people for crummy reasons and keeping crummy people for shared interests.
(26a: additionally, it is more important that others can tell the content of your character than your political views. So choose what you broadcast to the world.)
27. You will, at some point, be hurt by someone. In those moments reach onto your life boat. For some its Faith. for some it is Family. for some it is a Friend.
28. We lose people and one day others will lose us. and it is the absolute most heartwrenching thing. Especially in those moments, you can always always always come crawl into my lap and I will play with your hair for as long as you need.
29. Live Life in such a way that there isnt anything you hope I never find out.
But know that I love you. and if you are ever in a bind, Im your mother. Daddy is your Daddy. and we will always do what we can to help you. not fix it for you, but help you.
30. the purpose of Our Life here is not to lead Our Life, but to help enrich others.
31. Buy in bulk. it's very hard to run out of coffee!
32. Nothing good ever happens after 2am. Just go home. just.go.home.
33. ALWAYS have cab fare. you never know when youll be stranded somewhere, or maybe you are riding with friends and dont feel comfortable going where they are going or they will want to go do questionable things. or maybe you will be out and you will want to have a couple drinks. Or maybe you are out on a date and you dont want to continue for some reason. you need a way to get home with confidence and honor. ALWAYS have cab fare. 20 bucks should be fine unless theres crazy cab inflation between now and 2035 :)
34. Julian, open doors for anyone. boys. girls. older people. coworkers. etc.
35. Narae: be grateful for every door thats opened. both figuratively and literally. Be thankful. They dont have to be opened, they are being polite and we should always appreciate the small things!
36. send people messages, just because. tell them youre thinking of them, you miss them, you wanted to say hi and hope they had a good day.
37. tell people, all people, what you appreciate about them. it starts out awkward, but it just gets good.
38. Listen to your body. I told you this duringpotty training, and Ill tell you during every other part of life. your body is STRONG. your body is ABLE. your body is ALIVE and you need to take care of it, listen to it and love it.
39. Julian, any girl you become serious and long term with, your sister will try and love and maybe even be close to. be careful to always guard your heart, and the hearts of sissy.
40. buy someone else's coffee or dinner every so often when you go out to eat. anonymously. and watch their faces. it makes everything better.
more to come. just saving it as i go :)
(just in case you forget, or im not around to tell you.)
1. always keep change in your car for the meter or an emergency payphone call (they STILL exist) and dollars somewhere in the car for gas.
2. When you Meet The Parents, bring flowers for "mom" and a dessert or side dish if its a dinner date.
3. Julian boy, when youre married, you are responsible for not only getting your wife (or husband if you wish) a birthday gift, but also send their mother flowers. its a day she holds dear, and she will appreciate it.
4. Narae: Wear modest clothing. There is nothing more beautiful than a classy lady who knows her beauty and embraces it, without giving it all away. The type of person you attract with modest clothes is much better than the ones youll attract with immodest clothes.
5. Narae: when youre on a date, do the "check dance" where you reach for it as a silent offer to pay. let the date turn you down for paying. Also...pay some dates yourself. Id say date 4 is a good one to pay for :)
6. Jude: You should always offer to pay too. and the first few times, INSIST on it.
7. Julian, always offer your dates your coat on a cool night. for this reason, always wear long sleeve shirts (the button up ones are the shirts I find very handsome) and be mindful of the weather.
8. Julian, when it comes time to ask for your lovers hand in marriage, ask the person who is most important to them. Be that a daddy, a mumma, or even an older brother or sister. especially if she doesnt have great parents or a hard childhood, you want to make sure her family knows you love her.
9. Take the garbage bags out of the box when you buy them, and put them in the bottom of the garbage can. this saves time and means youll not forget to replace the bag.
10. Julian - just accept that taking out the garbage might just automatically be your job. embrace it :)
11. put your clothes in the dresser drawers in the order in which you put them on Daddy says.
12. Julian - flowers are great gifts. for Holidays, birthdays, Tuesdays. they are great accents to another gift. also you dont just want to give flowers when youre sorry or you have a need to (like valentines day).
13. Narae: when you are going to tell them you are pregnant. make it fun! Play a game or a special inside joke. it will be very memorable :)
14. Having children isnt scary. its wonderful. the scary thing is having one with someone you dont want to have them with or having one at a time thats less than ideal. but should you ever find yourself in that situation, know its not the child thats scary. and you can do anything if you put your mind to it. so make sure to be as responsible as possible until the time comes when you meet someone wonderful that is a great match.
15. Tell your lover 3 things every day in different ways: that you love them, that they are beautiful to you and that you appreciate something they did or just something about them.
16. its okay to go to bed angry if you have to. as long as you say I love you first.
17. buy your mom flowers. any time. :)
18. when off in college i understand if things get busy. I want you home any time you can, but i Know sometimes things come up. Just promise me that you give me every birthday. those days are the days I fell in love with you and met you and gave my life to you. and dang it i want to hold you close on every single one. :)
19. When you have a horrible day or are feeling down, get up. put clothes on. go out of the house specifically for making someones day better. go to the coffee stand, buy yourself a cup and buy one for the car behind you and write them a note. i promise you it feels good and will change your mood. if you need MORE of a pick me up, do another thing for someone.
20. Do good things OFTEN and do them anonymously. but you can always call me and tell me. i want to hear them! i seriously crave it. :)
21. put pictures up in your house. it makes it more home-y.
22. you keep those dates with mom and dad. we need those moments with you.
23. Narae - have dates with your mother in law. go to tea, go shopping, go on drives. just enjoy her company. she raised your love, and so she must be amazing right?
24. if a first date is awkward, try a second date. sometimes the first ones are PERFECT. sometimes they arent. but they could still lead to greatness.
25. Seriously dont offer more than a kiss with someone on a first date. ever. i mean, it wouldnt be a bad idea to not kiss until the second. but thats a just a thought. You never get those early days back.
26. Be passionate about your politics. Be passionate about your religion. But do those things internally. When it comes to friends, simply be passionate about character traits and how they are as humans. If they differ on something political but are a wonderful person who treats others kindly and gives freely to others, keep them around. You dont want to end up losing good people for crummy reasons and keeping crummy people for shared interests.
(26a: additionally, it is more important that others can tell the content of your character than your political views. So choose what you broadcast to the world.)
27. You will, at some point, be hurt by someone. In those moments reach onto your life boat. For some its Faith. for some it is Family. for some it is a Friend.
28. We lose people and one day others will lose us. and it is the absolute most heartwrenching thing. Especially in those moments, you can always always always come crawl into my lap and I will play with your hair for as long as you need.
29. Live Life in such a way that there isnt anything you hope I never find out.
But know that I love you. and if you are ever in a bind, Im your mother. Daddy is your Daddy. and we will always do what we can to help you. not fix it for you, but help you.
30. the purpose of Our Life here is not to lead Our Life, but to help enrich others.
31. Buy in bulk. it's very hard to run out of coffee!
32. Nothing good ever happens after 2am. Just go home. just.go.home.
33. ALWAYS have cab fare. you never know when youll be stranded somewhere, or maybe you are riding with friends and dont feel comfortable going where they are going or they will want to go do questionable things. or maybe you will be out and you will want to have a couple drinks. Or maybe you are out on a date and you dont want to continue for some reason. you need a way to get home with confidence and honor. ALWAYS have cab fare. 20 bucks should be fine unless theres crazy cab inflation between now and 2035 :)
34. Julian, open doors for anyone. boys. girls. older people. coworkers. etc.
35. Narae: be grateful for every door thats opened. both figuratively and literally. Be thankful. They dont have to be opened, they are being polite and we should always appreciate the small things!
36. send people messages, just because. tell them youre thinking of them, you miss them, you wanted to say hi and hope they had a good day.
37. tell people, all people, what you appreciate about them. it starts out awkward, but it just gets good.
38. Listen to your body. I told you this duringpotty training, and Ill tell you during every other part of life. your body is STRONG. your body is ABLE. your body is ALIVE and you need to take care of it, listen to it and love it.
39. Julian, any girl you become serious and long term with, your sister will try and love and maybe even be close to. be careful to always guard your heart, and the hearts of sissy.
40. buy someone else's coffee or dinner every so often when you go out to eat. anonymously. and watch their faces. it makes everything better.
more to come. just saving it as i go :)
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