rolled over!

on 05.27.2009 you were 5 months old. 

and you rolled over for us. 

we've tried since then to get it again...but you are just too social and hate tummy time. 

we love you and are so proud baby boy. 

just a rad day altogether.

we have SO much fun together as a family. i LOVE it.

dear j.

you're 5 months old today. 

i can hardly believe it. 

my love for you is INCREDIBLE. 

and i am so proud to be your mummy. 

: ]

daddy and i love you!

you found your feet!

j - 

you foudn your feet and you LOVE them. 

you also learned you LOVE the peaches and applesauce...only a little now...we still like the milks!

but that gerber 1st foods is WONDERFUL. 

doesnt taste too bad either : ]

ha!

you are talking more and more. 

mom and dad are moving into the new place and you are getting real separation anxiety. its strange and kind of cute. 

i miss you when im gone. very much handsome man. 

you are almost 5 months old. just 3 more days...and i am SO blessed to have you. 

we love you more than anything son. 

63 lbs!!!

dear j...

the 60 lbs you brought with you into my life...GONE. (except for your lbs of course). 

and an additional 3 lbs...GONE. :]

we have some time to go. 

but we'll be at the 100 lb mark before you know it!

now if i could only get better! 

ive been sick for weeks, luckily my nursing has kept you from getting it. 

doctor getting called tomorrow!

love.

you are next to me....

sleeping, or trying to. 

you are noise making, bubble blowing, big stretching, cuddle bugging, perfect being. 

i love you Julian Russell Charles. 

you are amazing, and Mommy and daddy are so happy to have you. 

im blown away by your daddy too. 

i was thinking of all the things that we have done with each other. 

post its all over the house...easter eggs with messages....back rubs...Les pauls...Laptops...note cards...song writing....TuesDates....you needing daddy after your shots...needing mommy for sleepytime cuddles....naptime (when you were in my belly, you and i and daddy and ripley and sully took an afternoon nap on the couches : ] ). 

mommy has seizures. daddy has been there for everytime i needed him. 

we went to seattles together. sang in the car together. sang to you together. 

my first present to daddy was the Jungle Book. 

our first date was to an all you can eat buffet! (we now are learnign portion sizes). 

we buyed a new car so that we could be prepared for you. 

daddy told me he loved me while laying on his bed cuddling. 

we moved in together...and it has been wonderful. mommy and daddy have had a big fight, one reallly big one. but we always work through it. 

he buys me flowers when i needs them. 

snacks and foods i love. 

i sometimes lay out his clothes or put a towel in the dryer to get warm before his shower. 

i need to do it more than i have. 

you and he are my most wonderful successes. 

biggest and best of blessings. 

daddy is a smart man. 

"i will hit you with the remote"

"put on your shirt"

"come here....i like you"

"3.5.3."

we went to see hanson, and floater, quandry. 

we have seen movies in theaters and at home. 

you're first movie was he's just not that into you. it wasnt the best movie ever. 

you did sleep the WHOLE time. 

you liked the train. :]

you have the best babysitters ever. Mammy Key; aunnie Hedder, miss halley, toni, aunnie kimmi, Miss Jennifer....they all love you and soon Miss Angela will move in to watch you. we like her. 

i love you so much. im going to cuddle you right now. 

 man my love for you is AMAZING. LIFE GIVING. SMILE PRODUCING...PURE. 

SIMPLE. 

loves you and your daddy. 

mommy.

one of daddy's favorite pictures.

you are BEAUTIFUL!

Good God you're beautiful.

4.5 months old and still in control of my heart.

Good God you're beautiful.

4.5 months old and still in control of my heart.

dont bother me....im eating...

dear Julian.

on December 26th, at around 1pm i started having uncomfortable regular but minor contractions. i times them. and then, after hours of them, i walked out to Aunt K's kitchen and rearranged her fridge letters, thinking again it was false labor. 

more hours after that your waters broke, and 18 hours after that as well, you came out to see us. 

Aunt K. still has this on her fridge, and it reminds me all the time how much i loved you and how much we waited. 

we LOVE you. 

we are SO glad you came home. 

another necessity.

Baby boy...first off...i LOVE YOU. 

we remember Atreyu today and we pray for him and his mommy and daddy.

Aunnie Jennifer introduced us to Dreft Laundry Stain remover. 

it is awesome!

it took out all your toxic poo stains!

now we're gonna watch yes man with daddy.we saw it for the first time in December just a week before you came home!

i love you. 

dearest j.

my heart is overflowing with joy. 

its amazing how much being a mother is inside of my heart. im so in love. 

so so much. 

on the breastfeeding end of things. 

im now taking fenugreek and reglan to make sure that i keep up the milk supply. 

its working! you're eating more and im making more! woo!