impressed.

this was the first surprising interaction.

"Ven Aqui Julian"

"All Right!!"

you come.

"Gracias Julian!"

"De Nada Mahmee!"

then again tonight!

"I love you mahmee!"

"I love you too baby. Gracias!"

"De Nada Mahmee!"

"Buddy good job! Buenas Noches Mijo!"

"Adios Mahmee, buenas noches!"

you are learning so well.

thank you for loving me.

for loving daddy.

for being so good.

and for loving life.

it makes my heart soar.

today i worked SO hard for you. and Im going to put in a lot of overtime for you buddy!

youre beautiful and im going to make things happen for us!

babies.

from daddy as a baby....

from mahmee as a baby....

we somehow got you.

and gods plan was perfect.

sing mahmee

those words are precious.

as i lay you down in your big boy bed, to try it once more, you cried. so i sat there in the dark by your bed and sang. when i thought you were asleep minutes later i stopped, only to hear you stir and say "sing, mahmee." so so quietly.

your love completes me and overwhelms me.

im so so in love with being your mahmee.

i love you Julian.

silly little things:

posts from your birthday from mahmee and daddy:

just a random tidbit to show our love!

Mahmee's facebook post:

‎2 years ago I met my soul mate in a hospital room and I fell hopelessly in love. I love you & happy birthday baby boy! Daddy and I are so proud of you!

27 de diciembre de 2010 a las 10:23 a través de Android · · Me gusta · Comentar

Daddy's facebook post:

So..you are 2 today. 730 days of excitment and amazement (oh, and elmo lol). You've taught me so much and taken me so far...it sure is nice having you as a lighthouse to guide me through the rough waters we call life...because as long as I can see you I know I'm pointed in the right direction and headed for the shore. I love you Jude, happy birthday:)

just some randoms from 13-24 months.

lounging.
oh this is one of my favorite pictures. i know its not nice that you are crying, but you are beautiful.
can i just say, you LOVE headbands almost as much as you love glasses.
Carseat laughter.
the one there was at subway, you thought you saw zack and cody because one of the teenagers there had longer hair. so cute.
you and your daddy are super close. i love seeing you guys together.
this one makes me laugh.
we love to play in glasses.

my beautiful handsome little manlet.
beach and such.



oh were you mad i took away your golf ball. "we dont throw hard balls judebug"

TWO BEBOFACE!




bASEBALL AT Lilahs

anger at sushi.
kissy at Keemys.

guess what baby?

the best part of me is you.

everything, who i am when im with you is the best me.

i love being your mother.

i was thinking today, no matter what happens with anything, with anybody, there isnt any way i will be unhappy, because i have you.

everything is for you.

i love you.

and i dont deserve you.

you're precious to me, and im so grateful that i can see God's love for me, in the simple fact that he entrusted me with you.

and im going to spend my days earning what he readily gave me.

God is good baby.

you are perfect for me, soul mate : )

something from Daddy

he is so proud of you. always the sports enthusiast you are just like daddy.

he was impressed with your arm : )

something from Daddy

he is so proud of you. always the sports enthusiast you are just like daddy.

he was impressed with your arm : )

Night With RoseBud.

i love this. you have such a love / dislike relationship with her lol.
but you cuddled and it was sweet.
this lasted for about 45 seconds. glad i managed pictures before it ended :] you two are super cute together. April and I were talking and she mentioned that someone told her kids your age dont play together, they play individually around each other. but you guys really interact and we know you play together.

you even locked her in the bathroom today and we had to make you say sorry.

you're not used to constant other baby company though and when i gave her milk first you got mad and cried. but i explained to you, we let ladies go first, even if it just means getting their drink first. :]

you're gonna be such a beautiful handsome grown up man!

love you so much boo bear.

moving moving!

from facebook today: when all is said and done, i just want to look in those eyes, hold your hand and kiss that sweet face. its been a long week, and there are a few more days left baby. but soo you'll see your new house and sleep in your big bed :] i miss you Julian!

its been crazy baby. you've spent 3 days with Grandma Kitty while i prepare our new house in beaverton.

mommy doesnt like you havent to be so far from daddy, but itll be good. mommy needs to see a special doctor up there, and there are lots of loved ones up there! we are going to do great baby. we are putting our life in Gods wonderful hands, and things will be PERFECT :]

nothing....

in this whole world makes me happier than when i put you down for sleep and i say "i love you julian" when you say "i love you" back to me.

you are precious to me.

i am so blessed that we have such a great relationship.

you are wonderful and amazing and i am smitten with you babe.

funny kid!

today you found a bucket. you put it on your head. and lived that way for awhile.

you said Cody today. it sounded like "Doedy" :] you are learning, a new word a day at least it seems like.

im so amazed by you. mommy is really trying to go to school.

i took a test that tells the college where i am at. ill be honest bubbas, mommy didnt do so well in Math, but i TRIED.

i did good at reading and writing, and i will love helping you with both of those when you are older :].

you like to sit IN things. today i put you in a duffle bag sitting up, unzipped, and you just drank your juice while i carried you around :]

you make your momma smile.

sweet sweet boy.

today was a hard day.

for days you have had an on and off fever.
doctors told us it wasnt too bad a sign as long as you were your normal self.
you acted normal and happy. until last night. fever spiked and you wouldnt eat or drink. we put you in light clothing and you again slept with us.
i am SO glad you did.

this morning around 1000am you woke up and i sat up. i cleaned the nasties out of your eyes while you cried; they were so bad your eyes could barely open.
i leaned to the floor to pick up a diaper and sat back up to change you when i notced you change.

you stared off to your right and started twitching, your right side in rhythmic movements.

my sweet perfect angel was having a seizure. i knew right off the bat it was from the fever, but i still freaked. i screamed for Angela who came in and saw you. she grabbed her phone and called for the paramedic doctors to come get you. after you stopped shaking mommy noticed you weren't breathing, and your lips were now blue. your eyes weren't moving or even blinking and your entire body was completely limp.
i picked you up and you flopped over, nothing in your little body. my first thought is you were choking on your nasties. i pumped your belly a few times and nothing came up but spit. it occurred to me that you couldnt breathe.

mommy laid you down on the ground, lips still blue and no breaths and i pinched your little nose and breathed into you, one, two, three times. i was praying and begging so hard, and out loud, "God dont take him from me" you're my baby, my sweet sweet baby boy. and my heart broke in two as i breathed for you.

i heard a sputter, a cry, a whimper and you started moaning, still burning up. Nanny came and started taking off your clothes to cool you off, and your diaper. i rolled you onto your side and you didnt move just kept moaning. your voice was the sweetest sound, and i was so so relieved you were breathing. the paramedic doctors came in soon, and they put you in the big ambulance car.

we met daddy at the hospital. baby boy i was right with you the whole time.
the doctor told us you had a febrile seizure, a fever seizure. your fever had shot to over 105 degrees. its like cooking chili. if you turn the burner up to 9 without letting it warm up, it can burn fast. and your fever went real high real fast.
you would be okay, and they would give you medicines.
you had a chest xray which told us that you had bronchitis and the dcotr saw you also had 2 ear infections. we have to make sure you are okay with your nasties and keep you propped up so you dont choke on your ickies.

we have you home now, and boy baby you are tired.

im going to hold you until the cows come home, and then longer. screw the cows.

we are still praying. God is good and you are here with us. i thank the lord for every moment with you.

you were so strong and so tough; i am SO proud of you. my sweet sweet baby boy.

everything is going to be all right.

i love you JudeBug.
my julian.
my sunshine.

Christmas time!

first christmas came 2 days before your first birthday....

and to think, one year ago today i was crying over wrapping paper being beautiful.

thanks to you and your beautiful hormones. :)

love you boo.

halloween time!

first halloween, here is the pic daddy took of you. so proud of your mahsser outfit!

just an old but random but adorable foto

of Mahmee cuddles!

just a rad day altogether.

we have SO much fun together as a family. i LOVE it.

Julian. This, is beautiful you.

Julian Russell Charles.

16:39 PT.

7# 5oz.

19.5 inches.

Silverton, OR.

To Mahmee and Daddy.

who were also born that day.

we love you.