i swaddled you yesterday bubba. just for fun. to cuddle you like when you were a baby. and you fell right to sleep. it made me happy. i love still feeling like you are my baby boy, even if you have a mind and a world of your own. i love you bootdoo!
just love these photos. how happy you were at 1 week old. by the way, i do not believe that baby smiles are gas smiles. i believe babies feel happiness and i believe that for some cases, smiles are an automatic response to happiness and not something a person tries to do. therefore a smile is innate right?
you and your daddy are boys boys:] you guys will be very close in the coming years i just know it.
your eyes and your smile make me soar!
hi love.
i am so glad i cant ever shake these moments from my noggin.
ha you are my reason love!

i think about you so much.

it seems like sometimes when you wake up from a nap you look much older than when i put you down for that nap. and that makes me sad and happy. i know that no matter how old you get you will always love me and vice versa. i truly believe that we have something good, you and me and daddy. see we care so much for you, we are doing everything just for you. and daddy is doing a great job taking care of mommy and vice versa until we figure things out. i love you. and i do love daddy and we will be okay.

today you went with Grandma Kitty and Auntie Ayla to the World Beat and watched the parade while mommy caught up on sleep from her first week of school. then we went to Portland and visited with Mr Bryan and Ms Caitlin and miss delilah. Lilah is one year older than you. they had a party for their new house and we visited. you got a bit stressed out and threw her toys and screamed a little but then Mr Bryan came to play with you and you had fun :] they are good friends of mommy's. and they sure do love you.

you played ball and you have such a good arm!

then we stopped in to see NaNa and PaPa and you played with all the balls and elmo! they are so fond of you. :] they have taken very good care of mommy. thats why your middle name is russell. nana's and papa's last name is russell. :]

then we went and fed ourselves with subway :] and you ate all your sammich after having boycotted food all day :]

anyhow, then we fed Penny and Indy and went home where we cuddled with Zack and Cody until night night time.

im going to bust my butt in school buddy. this is for you, for us, for our life.

i love you and i want you to know we work hard for everything. when you go to school, then high school, then hopefully college...do it in your way, but do it well baby.

we are trusting god that he brings the money together. this is a hard time love, but we are going to make it work.

mommy wants this for us very badly, and we might be living with a roommate for a little while or something but i will always keep you safe lovely.

no one will come near us that is unsafe and we will have family and daddy around all the time.

they say it takes a village to raise a child. and you have the best most loving village.

tomorrow we are going to the beach to see Uncle Chad and mommys mother, grandma K.