With daddy during family day.

At the farrs

Right before they moved. Blaec was helping mum and dad. But these are the rest and aeson. I hate your buddies had to move away :(

Day together!

Just spending time with you before daddy comes home and we go off to the blazer game! More to come.

Lovely.

This is just phenomenal. I went to turn on when harry met sally and you fell asleep during the opening credits. You're my precious.

Will you kiss my head?

we laid down together on daddees bed when you wouldnt nap. and you asked me "mahmee, kiss my head?" so i gave you a kiss on your precious forehead.

then you asked again "mahmee, kiss my head!"

so again, i pressed my mahmee lips against that sweet big ole head.

you got this sweet grin on your face and said, "Thank youuuuu."

i LOVE it.

i want to remember that.

you didnt go to sleep, and we have to leave soon to go pick up daddee while his car is broked. but you precious, every minute with you is bliss.

mahmee has a stomach ache today.

you see, ive mentioned before that my organs, the important pieces of the body, are a little wonky. my organs that make babies, the ones that made you have a disease called endometriosis and it makes my tummy hurt sometimes.

but when it hurts, even bad when it hurts to move, i remember that through it all, God still let me have you. and i will take that pain in a heartbeat if it means that i got you.

oh yes.

i got you babe.

youre the best gift.

still remember the first time i heard your heartbeat.

i cried, it was the most beautiful sound i had ever heard...replaced soon after with the first cry after you came out into the world.

thank you for changing my life.

im madly in love with you sonshine.

times get tough babe

but when times get tough its just a reminder that you are alive.

and what a beautiful fucking thing that is.

youre beautiful and though this weekend was not at all weekend like for me, i got to see you and hold you and cuddle you. you're beautiful.

we're about to go help someone with their car.

we like helping people.

and sometimes i need a reminder that i should do such things with a smile on my face, im working on it.

i should be getting my check on the 17th, which will let us do our traditional toys for tots drives :]

we love helping people, all year round, not just during the holidays baby.

speaking of which, HAPPY HANNUKKAH!

i hope you find what drives you in love, life and religion. like Mahmee has.

and we're watching charles barkley.

he is so amusing.

i love that we can be silly together.

LOVE YOU!