just some pictures. :]

hi handsome.
watching se-same street.
buggles.

you let me swaddle you like a baby.
i love you boot.
before bathtime.
i LOVE this.
so freakin handsome.
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another fave.

today i woke up to you. came to daddys last night but felt so sick i went to sleep before you even.

i woke up and i was so happy you were here with me :] or rather, that i was here with you.

im amazed at you. you're learning so much. when i ask you what a cow says you say "moo moo!" when i ask you wat a dog says you say woof woof! when i ask what a bear says you saw grrrrrr. you are so smart.

today you sang me your WHOLE ABCs with very little help! you are amazing!

you also use sentences now.

21 months old walking around saying "its yummy milk" and "donnie's sleeping"

im blown away by you!

i have started my job at comcast and am trying really hard! i love you and just want to build such a good life for you. there are a lot of options out there for me and you, and im working for all of them.

you and daddy and i pulled tomatoes out of the garden! yummy!

(when youre like 18 and you read this, the baby talk will get annoying and for that, im sorry. but come on, youre 21 months old right now, so sue me.

today we are going to CJs birthday party :] you LOVE CJ. the whole family of carrie and clifton makes you so happy! i love that you love them. its like you have found another family that loves you. and its amazing.

in a few weeks we are going to blazers opening night. :] i love that we get to have nights like that!

for the next few months while mommy gets used to the new job, things will be tight, but i promise you i will never leave you needing something. we may not have everything that we want all the time, but we will always have things we need.

i love you baby, and we are gonna rock this life.

birthmarks

stupid redness makes it look less vibrant

yours is on your inner right thigh, and mine is on my left.

they match, even though you cant see it very well...i noticed it :]

mommy has a couple, one on her lip and another on her right thigh.

its cool. makes us unique. ill look for a better picture soon!

youre NOT broken.

i dont care what anyone says. we will always be a close family. and you will always be loved and we will ALWAYS be there for you. together. as a team.

god i love you.

youre mahmee! mahmee! mahmee! is perfect.

your intent blink when your mad at me is perfect.

your giggle laugh is perfect.

you are perfect for me.

Golly

Weekend with mommy! And man I miss you so so much. You are so smart. Yesterday went to the park and ran bases with daddy.

Love you! And so proud of you finding your own personality. Excited to meet you more and more love.

i LOVE

when you say MAHMEE

over and over i dont care. i LOVE it.

how on earth did i get to be your mommy?

such a wonderful thing.

i love you.

thats all there is to it.

yesterday we got a surprise: seeig daddy and auntie Aya and Grandma Kitty all in one night! how wonderful!

excited for things to come.

but im bawling my bones off trying to find a daycare. :(

i dont want this.

I want to be here with you!

love you baby.

one of these days youll sleep in your toddler bed :]

moving moving!

from facebook today: when all is said and done, i just want to look in those eyes, hold your hand and kiss that sweet face. its been a long week, and there are a few more days left baby. but soo you'll see your new house and sleep in your big bed :] i miss you Julian!

its been crazy baby. you've spent 3 days with Grandma Kitty while i prepare our new house in beaverton.

mommy doesnt like you havent to be so far from daddy, but itll be good. mommy needs to see a special doctor up there, and there are lots of loved ones up there! we are going to do great baby. we are putting our life in Gods wonderful hands, and things will be PERFECT :]