i LOVE

when you say MAHMEE

over and over i dont care. i LOVE it.

how on earth did i get to be your mommy?

such a wonderful thing.

i love you.

thats all there is to it.

yesterday we got a surprise: seeig daddy and auntie Aya and Grandma Kitty all in one night! how wonderful!

excited for things to come.

but im bawling my bones off trying to find a daycare. :(

i dont want this.

I want to be here with you!

love you baby.

one of these days youll sleep in your toddler bed :]

moving moving!

from facebook today: when all is said and done, i just want to look in those eyes, hold your hand and kiss that sweet face. its been a long week, and there are a few more days left baby. but soo you'll see your new house and sleep in your big bed :] i miss you Julian!

its been crazy baby. you've spent 3 days with Grandma Kitty while i prepare our new house in beaverton.

mommy doesnt like you havent to be so far from daddy, but itll be good. mommy needs to see a special doctor up there, and there are lots of loved ones up there! we are going to do great baby. we are putting our life in Gods wonderful hands, and things will be PERFECT :]

So.Much.Beauty!

today you said "want Kees!" you asked me for a kiss. how precious.

i just laid you in bed for sleep. every night i tell you "i love you" and you say "love you" then "good night" "ni night" sweet dreams "swee drees" its precious.

and today. you said ABC :) im SO proud of you.

you are my WORLD and every day i thank god for the day we had and ask for another. you are BEAUTIFUL and you were made to be my son. youre my soul mate son!

nosebleed.

reminds me of you and daddy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqkZrkddpk0

by the way, when you are tired and you lay down and just reach up to play with mine or daddy's hair...it makes us smile...so much. you play with it when you lay down for sleep.

today you got curious about my nose...and shoved your finger up my nose so far you made it bleed. you weirdo. i love you so fucking much baby.

new house.

love you.

oh so much.

we looked at our new house today baby.

im going to love being your roommate :)

youre so amazing!

today we went with miss C and mr B to the Farmers Market in Portland.

you didnt sleep well at night since we werent at home at daddy's so you woke up early and was craaaanky. you had some pancakes from Mr B and then we hopped in the car and drove to Sauvie Island where you picked berries with B and we went shopping for fresh local veggies and fruits! we like eating healthy :]

you were tired so we called daddy to say hi, and then came back towards Mr B and C's house. by the time we were out of the farm you were sleeping! now you nap and i enjoyed some numnums from the Market :]

you were having a rough day so i cuddled you. we blew on all the dandelions...and when one wouldnt blow you shoved it in your mouth. poor bug, thats not what you wanted at all :]

i love these new things with you babe boy!