remembering your birth!

here are some of the posts from your birthday to my friends as i reminisced about bringing you into the world :) just some funny little tidbits. obviously the event was much too exciting and emotional to bare in such a public forum. but ill tell you all about it later. its one of my favorite days.

27 hours of love and it was worth every second.

1pm
4 years ago, at this very moment, I was counting contractions every 5-8 minutes. So so close! As Jamie Backer worked away the day, I sat there in my sisters house, on a yoga ball, eating cereal as my "last meal" and watching cesar milan on animal planet, hoping that horrible ice wouldnt prevent us from getting where we needed to go and wondering, what would he look like? What would he be like? Who is he?
:)

10pm
POP goes the water....
in just a few minutes it will have been 4 years since my and Julian's water broke after the first 9 hours of our grand adventure! 
not wanting to worry my Chad and Chelsea about it, i sat in the bathroom, waiting for an unsuspecting Jamie, just out of work, to come get me so we could head out to see where we were at in the whole thing. I had specifically not told jamie what was happening that day, as i didnt want him hurrying to me while the roads were so dangerous. as i waited I wondered "what is taking him so long?" Little did I know he stopped to buy me flowers just because i was big, fat and pregnant :]
i am pretty sure i ruined and/or stole more than one of Kimber-Leigh 's towels that night. and for that i am sorry.... :)

Its 12:55am today in 2008, and we arrived just a little bit ago to the birthing center. I have a band on my wrist and am resting uncomfortably in a bed. They put those big bulky disks across my midsection to check on us and I hear the heartbeat of my boy, as well as my own, for what will be one of the last times before both of our hearts come out into the world to live outside my body for all time.
What a wicked cool experience.
They tell me "oh, you're about a 1 and a half ish."
Ain't nothing but 8.5 centimeters between me and jamie and meeting our son.
"You're doing greeeeeaaat" he said.
"Its not that much more to gooooo" he said
"You'll have that baby soooooon" he said.
"I'm sure it'll pick up real quicklyyyy" he said.

...

Its 1040 in both 2012 and 2008. 
In 2012, my boy is still sleeping and dreaming.
In 2008, my boy was still inside of my persons.
They check again; I am at about a 6. I'm feeling defeated at its length, and I'm losing steam. The nurse urges me to drink some sprite for a pick me up. I want to punch her!
Christopher is whispering something...I want to punch him. Kimber-Leigh is smarter and hasn't said a word in in the last 8 hours and Jamie at one point falls asleep on the floor briefly. I also wanted to punch him. Our families had arrived earlier in the morning and are in the waiting room, and ill be keeping them waiting for awhile.

Note: no one was actually punched in the delivery of this child.

Its 1:11pm in 2008, and I've been at this for 24 hours. I'm at about a 7.5 now... And the anticipation is building. Jamie Backerand Kimber-Leigh May are keeping me sane and focused. #1birthingteam.
Not much longer?


4:15pm. 
4 years ago right now..id been pushing for 75 minutes.

I remember so clearly thinking

"This happens so much faster in the movies."

1639pm. 
7#5oz. 
19.5 inches. 
a massive head. 
and loved more than anything has ever been loved in the history before him. 
i have never been able to explain completely the love and adoration i have for this little soul mate of mine. wont stop me from trying.
Julian, I cant imagine my world without you in it, nor remember what it was like before you. i will never forget the way i felt knowing that daddy was the one i picked for you, and when we learned you were there. i wont forget the details of the days leading up to you being with us, or any of the times after. you make me the best person i could possibly be. i will try every day to be better for you, to learn from you, to be everything you deserve, need, want.
youre amazing, and i am SO thankful for the last 4 years.
happy birthday buddy.
im amazed by you.