blowing wishes.

i love having my dandelion tattoo. you will come up and blow on it and make a wish. you did this yesterday and i did the same. you asked what i wished for and i replied "i smoochie boochie!" and you gave me a kiss. i asked you in return what you had wished for. Your reply? "I wish that i can play for the blazers, and i wished that i can get big and shoot hoops!"

just warms my heart as right now you and daddy and mahmee are sitting around the coffee table eating some not so good for us fast food and watching a blazer game. 

it is a sometimes food :) 

LOVE YOU BLAZER BOY!

Succesful bathtime.

Ahhh love being your mahmee.

Now that you like independence ill often start a load of dishes while you bathe. You know the rules: when I say "julian!" You respond "mahmee!" To let me know you're all right. I check on you all the time and leave the door open so we can see each other. But still I get sad you aren't super tiny and that you rely on me for things like bathtime. :( I love every single thing about you prince. You're my everything.

Love

So thankful daddy works so we can have moments like these. Love my boys.

Babies!

My jude, you picked out your new blazer carseat. It was very important to me and daddy that you had a special new seat for when maya came home. You helped me pick it out, and even though the lady checked all over and couldn't find one in stock...when she checked again, one appeared! It mustve been gods intervening!

Maya, I fell in love with your carseat. Pink brown and white :) its called georgia stripe, and mommy and daddy debated calling you georgia for awhile. Its a song by hanson called "georgia" that brought us together, we used to sing it all the time. :)

Both for under 150$. LOVE this.

You are perfect!

My body.

This is what my maya and my jude have done to me.

And I LOVE looking at it. You babies make me beautiful.
I love you with unconditional perfect love.
Always.
Kisses to my moon and son.

Scared.

Jude,
We all get scared sometimes.
Daddy gets scared. Uncle gets scared. You get scared.
And mahmee gets scared too.
I get scared of something happening to you, or daddy. And when maya comes, I'm gonna be scared about her too.
I am filled with so much love for all you are and all you will become.  Sometimes its overwhelming. When mahmee gets a little paranoid, just remember its because I can't possibly love you more than I do, and that's a very vulnerable feeling.
You and daddy and maya are my loves, my hearts. You are my sonshine, maya is my moon and daddy is my love.
I'm so happy at you.

All the time.
Love love love.
Mahmee.

I'm not above public humiliation :)

Might show this to your girlfriend one day :)

Learning while we watch sesame videos :)

Loving with daddy part 1 :)

Laughing with daddy.

Part 2.

My handsome boys!

Feeling maya "bumping".

"Mahmee. I'm waiting for maya to just...um...pop out."

"I don't wanna go nighnight. I wanna hang out witchoo."

How can I resist? We watched youtube videos together about sesame street. Where jason mraz remakes "I'm yours" to "outdoors" (you said "mahmee is he singing the wrong words?") And then our favorite....ricky gervais singing elmo a song about the letter 'n'. :)

So fun. Loves!

Smarts!

The other day you climbed into bed and we asked you what letters were found in the word "blanket". You responded in letters & ASL!

Then today I asked you to throw something away and you asked "en la basura mahmee?"

I'm blown away by your smarts.

Love you bubby!

:)

Gettin daddy's head.

Watching wonderpets like a boss.

Every night

Every single night you guys sleep together I see the same sleeping. And I fall doubly in love :)

Jude loves his sissy

And this is how he practices holding her. :) LOVE. :)

From daddy :)

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: "Jamie Backer" <jamie.backer@gmail.com>
Date: Jan 10, 2012 11:55 AM
Subject: for jude&apos;s blog
To: "Rachel May" <osi.may@gmail.com>

you are almost a big brother! we are a month from maya coming home and things are pretty crazy around the house. to refresh your memory; Dad's job was completely in limbo, Mom was stressed that school wasn't going to work out for her, EVERYTHING in the house was broken (at the same time!). You may not have known this at the time, but we were pretty worried we weren't gonna make ends meet. But with all that stress, with all that uncertainty, we still had each other. Whenever your Mom and I were getting freaked out, you had a knack of interrupting the moment and saying something so off the wall, so ridiculously intelligent for a 3yr old, that it helped defuse us and remind us why we were here. 

You were getting brother practice with Elliott, and you were doing really good! at times, he got on your nerves but you seemed to have this understanding at 3 yrs old that we were helping him and Wes. You were complimenting of him when he did good things and you nurtured his behaviors...it was pretty incredible to observe. I could tell at a young age that you enjoyed teaching others. I really hope you two are buddies when you read this, like his dad and I are. 

Now, lets talk about that little sister of yours, Maya. its pretty awesome how excited you are to see her. I've heard stories of toddlers who were sad that another child is coming and im sure we will be dealing with little jealousy spats here of there, but you are so genuinely excited to meet her and help out with her. Youre going to be an integral part of raising Maya and I am damn proud of that.

Till next time! I love you little man:)

Blazer game with daddy!

My love.

Sitting on your "couch" with your "struction" hat on. Building a castle :)

I just love you.

So so much.

Today I said this to you.
"Who's my soulmate?" You pointed to yourself.
"Who's my SonShine?" Again, yourself.
"Who's the prettiest lady ever?" You pointed at me.
"Who's your mahmee?" You pointed to me.
"With your words, tell me."
"This one!" You said, pointing at me still.

:)

This one.

It brings me to happy tears how happy you make me. I love you son.

I hear urine!

Unprovoked urine.

Me: good job jude!
You: thank you mahmee. Just listening to my body!

Playdoh wif daddy!

Tryin to tell me something?

Angry bird obsession.

I'm so happy you love mahmee and daddys present to you. We knew you'd love it...and now you spend HOURS playing :) I love watching you, so expressive.

Another thing off topic? You've read 20 words in the last 3 days. :) so proud!