i did it!

i miss my boy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_profilepage&v=aEDev-mbfGY

nights like this...

its 330 am.

and i MISS YOU.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNPmFcGQsZE&feature=player_profilepage

im watching this video of you seeing the blazer things.

last night you were sick. and woke up a few times, other times moaning in your sleep.

i miss you, and it hurts me.

last night i got the pleasure of rocking you to sleep and singing to you.

you're amazing and i miss you baby.

i only wish you could know.

blayzoos

we saw the blazers last night with daddy, ayla, stephy, dan, grandpa backer, grandma kitty, uncle, jus, justin, april, juliet, angela, heather and some more friends. having so much love around you was wonderful. you are so sweet and precious and you love watching it. hearing you say "defense!" and "lets go blazers!" and "go brandon!" that was wonderful! you are even getting better at saying Przybilla, which is mommy's favorite player who is currently on the injured list :(

im so glad daddy and i get to share this common favorite pasttime with you. to have us all love the blazers makes it such a fun family time! and i love it.

im so proud of you. as i write this you are napping and daddy is off to get you a real basketball hoop. i hope he can find one! you are getting so good and playing better than most kids twice your age or more!

mommy is gonna go work out soon. im gonna make you as proud of me as i am of you. youre beautiful.

youre my knight in shining armor, my light, the sunshine of my life, my soul mate.

you're my son.

thats such a powerful thing to say.

i love you sonshine :]

You're beautiful. After 4 days without you I'm coming to you and holding you is phenomenal. Ill nevber get used to seeing you half the time. You're precious to me.

You're amazing and I love you.

Thank you for being my son.

something of daddy!

this is love. your daddy is so proud of you.

and so is your mahmee.

i just want to remind you.

every single day i get with you is a blessing.

every day that i know you are smiling, bretahing, loving, living is pure joy to my heart.

i love nothing more than you son. :]

you're my life and my soul.

and you are so freakin perfect.

Babe boy

You're amazing and I miss you.
Last night we went to miss caitlin and mr bryans rehearsal for the wedding mommy and daddy are in.

You were so good and I love spending extra time with you. You're fabulous.

I wish you were home. Last night I sat down and realized I was without you. And it made my heart hurt.

I watched a tv show where the teenage boy got mad at his mom and yelled at her. Made me sad. I want you to know I never wanna hurt you or make you mad at me. Can you just stay 21 months old and I stay 23 and we stay soul mates and bffs forever?

Love you jude-ith.