sickly Roo

oh Roo, we are up late tonight, as you have fallen sickly like brother. 

we are watching wedding shows while you pitter around. you go from mummas milk bottle, to the bottle of water, to playing with my toes, to playing with your Kangas, back and forth and back again. you are sweet and cuddly, just not ready for bed. 

i wanted to take this moment to tell you i cherish these nights. 

i havent even pumped yet and its 1am. 

itll be an early morning in  a few hours, and i know ill have to somehow survive off of the coffee daddy makes me in the morning (what a sweet fella getting my days started everyday).

but its all worth it. i love this. i am excited for the nights we stay up late watching wedding shows in prepareation for Daddy and Mumma's Love Party next year, and then for when its time for your wedding. 

i love you, and i will forever be excited for any night i get special girl time to bond and cuddle and laugh. 

but eventually, i do hope one thing changes...it will be a welcomed change when you stop trying to eat my toes :) 

i love you, Roo.

:)

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this picture WARMS MY HEART!!! holy smokes you guys love each other. love to cuddle and wrestle and climb. i love it.

and naroo loves glee. even figured that the remote works for the television and she tried to put it back one :)

awww narrrrooooo!

Draw something

this is one of my new favorite past times with you. its not secret to daddy and i that you are very smart, intellectual and very curious. you love to learn things, watch programs, learn activities and you are so naturally good at reading, even if you are like mumma and have to find something you WANT to read before you do it :) so when you told me you dont like reading books, i was determined to find another way to practicereading and keep you engaged. and found a GREAT way! its bonding, reading, writing and art all in one. its an app on the tablet called Draw Something. its simple, you have a list of words, you read them, pick one and then you draw it and it gets sent to me and i have to guess and then its my turn to do the same for you. you cant read all the words, and sometimes your drawings stem from your limited knowledge of the world (i.e. the sundae up top. THAT is your only exposure to Sundaes. its a reference from sesame street where oscar eats a mint chip fish sundae. we've watched that episode a few times and i laughed when i got it...it made me realize maybe i should give in and let you have a real sundae :)

or sometimes i have to just guess based on your personality. this one, above, was baby. i couldnt figure it out for a few minutes, but then it hit me. laying on the ground crying. a baby!

and this one was super super sweet. you are using arrows and logic and its really adorable. 

we are on a 40 word streak right now and i couldnt be more proud. sometimes you give up and we come back a day or two later, but i love seeing your logic, your brain making connections and knowing you are learning to read and write (while you read very well at around a 1st grade level, you have a ittle struggle with writing the sounds, so its nice to give you letters to choose from!)

just know, i love to challenge your brain. i love to see you grow and get curious. you are fascinating and beautiful to me. and ill never stop loving watching you become more and more the Julian that you are. 

love you boogs!

:)

might be some repeats but i coudlnt resist :)

this is carly! she finally came home the other day! she has a cone on, recovering from spay, but she will be back to her self soon and able to play. right now she has to rest a lot :(which is kind of okay, she wants to play with you guys SO bad and you arent a big fan yet :)

Daddy is SO handsome.

another of Carly!

my babies

holdyou forever if you let me.

this happens a LOT

singing mummas and mayas song :)

naroo and her kangaroo

family date :)

Today we had what started as a boys day but quickly became family day when
my sweet boy said "'I want you there because I would miss you if you were
gone". Talk about melting my heart!  So we had s great time!  Haircuts for
daddy and Julian stayed the day.  My boys look so handsome. I do miss my
Julians crazy long hair though!  After Julians haircut he heard music
playing, and danced to some songs while the other patrons and daddy got
their hair cut :) then we went to sushi!  Julian and I ate some pot
stickers and egg rolls and shared veggie rolls while daddy ate some other
fishy kinds. We then went to the Humane Society and finished the paperwork
to adopt formally or new puppy Carly.  It's official,  she will be in our
family and is coming home Wednesday! We saw the doggies and kitties there
and then headed home,  stopping on our way for our special treat,  a stop
at Dutch brothers where we had a "coffee date" I got a coffee and my boy
got a chocolate milk.  Will be so much fun when Maya is old enough to join
in!  :) I love spending time as a family out and about.  We've been a 4
some for almost a whole year now and I love how perfect it is.  Thanks for
the fun day loves. Time for snuggling!

Reflecting

just a note.

while listening to a song that was completely irrelevant to our relationship as mummy and child i heard lyrics that made me shiver and tears fell from my eyes. 

they are slightly different than what im about to share, but im writing what i heard in my heart, what brought forth the tears and what brought me to my knees, just thanking God for letting me have you, letting me be yours letting you be mine. 

i can neve, EVER, tell you in words how much i love you, and how much it means to me to be here for you, as yours, for AL of your moments. 

"I was there the moment you learned how to breathe, I was there the moment you got off your knees."

these lines...just brought me to my most humbled and grateful spot. 

what an obvious thing that i got to be there when you first learned to breathe...but you know? it still touched me. in such a deep deep way. 

i love you both SO deeply. so so deeply. 

thank you for being you. 

for loving me. 

i will never stop being this emotional over it. 

and i cant promise that sometimes i wont just want a long long hug as i breathe you in and remember every day and rejoice in all of the seconds and moments i got with you. 

this is the video with the song (which is currently playing a huge inspiring story in mummy and daddy's love party, themed "moments", youll see later :) 

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