Never too big for my arms.

Sicky boy. Ear infection. Molars. Sadness.
I love you baby.
Ill hold you as long as I can.

hey you.

i love you.

more than anything.

also, we were at wal mart yesterday and you made me laugh sommin fierce.

walking through the office supplies aisle you said "mahmee lookit all the toys!" ah you ARE my son!

then later, we had troubles. you heard the large circulator thingies on the cielign and thought they were monsters. which scared you...until you found my boobs. then you started touching. i told you, again, as i have had to do a lot lately, that boobies are for ladies, and its not appropriate to touch boobies. you honked em and said "mahmee they squeaky!". oh my.

as we trekked along the walmart we began talking about the baby in mahmee's tummy.

i said "wheres the bebe?"

"in mahmees tummy"

"what is the baby's name?"

"poosey!" you yelled.

WHAT?! where did you HEAR that word? in relaity you have been making up words left and right; youre favorite one right now is Bingoo. its what you say when youre angry at someone and you want to insult them.

when youre older you will laugh.

for now. mahmee laughs alone, and stays mortified alone :]

i LOVE YOU!

:) just lounging with mahmee.

Today we have lounged and been lazy today. We "clinkied" the zebra cakes we had...which is what we do when we are "toasting" our bites.  And then we are now gonna grab some food. Your brother or sister is making mahmee want a burrito! :)

"i wanna cuddle wif you."

oh precious.

mahmee has been sick from the baby, and today daddy was sickly too. you spent a lot of time with Uncle and Devin, which made you very happy.

but the thing that melted my heart today, was definitely this:

you came out to the dining room while i was eating with Donnie Mea and Uncle.

you looked at me and said.

"will you put me in bed?" i smiled and said yes and you walked up to me.

"i wanna cuddle wif you mahmee."

i picked you up and smiled, holding you close. you said it again.

"i wanna cuddle wif you."

i led you into bed after saying your 'good nights' and we got up into mahmee and daddy's bed.

the next thing that touched my little heart.

"mahmee will you rub my back?

this made me happy because ever since mahmee was a little girl, she has LOVED having people rub her back. my mom once did it and then i was hooked.

:]

i love you baby. you are so so precious to me.

:)

Just thinking of you

Ponko!

You are precious to me.
Mahmee is real sickly from the baby and you're so sweet. You laid on my lap and said "its okay honey." And then told us both you loved us. Then you asked the babys name and suggested we name it miku or ponko! You're so cute.
Were praying right now. Mahmee is so sick she had to go see the emergency room doctors to give her water in a tube and her potassium got so low she couldn't even stand on her own for a little while. It was very scary. Its still early so we are only telling family for now...but baby boy...you're already an amazing big brother. Love you!

You're perfect in every way.
Be my soul mate always.

youre going to be a big brother...

"Just as a woman's heart knows how and when to pump, her lungs to inhale, and her hand to pull back from fire, so she knows when and how to give birth." -Virginia Di Orio

Our siblings. They resemble us just enough to make all their differences confusing, and no matter what we choose to make of this, we are cast in relation to them our whole lives long. ~Susan Scarf Merrell

im blown away.

while its early still, and much can happen in the weeks it takes to grow a child, you are a big brother.

you have a sibling that has the bestest older brother.

mahmee and daddy have only told family, and a few friends, and we wait for an appointment to tell us that your little brother or sister is safe and healthy.

mahmee is not feeling well, but she is smiling through it.

each pain and sickness is helping me to feel the little one to be safe, and thats of such importance.

dear little one, do not worry, you will always be my firstborn, my son, my soul mate. another to join our family changes that not, and we will always share a special bond. but you, you will have a little sister to watch out for, or a little brother to go to blazer games with and to play ball with.

either way, we will love this little firefly.

you both are my little fireflies, and i am so proud to know you both, for however long im allotted. but im going to spend my life protecting you.

i love you baby boy. and im SO proud of you.

You.

I never want to be apart from you for another day in my life.

Sometimes I may have to. But know it will be miserable til we reunite. Love you judith.

8x the urine!

You peepeed in the toilet 8x today baby....3x yesterday....and you only had 2 wet diapers today. I'm so so proud of you. You're beautiful.

So so beautiful.

Sleepy cuddles.

Lub you baybee