"Mherro mahmee!"

You walked out with the sock on your hand and started using it as a mouth while using a funny voice.

You're just hilarious as can be :) love you!

Getting daddys head

:) you do this every day :)

Happy feet. :)

"Ill take care of you mommy!"

This morning daddy came in to wake you up to take you to see his dad and his step mom, grandpa and grandma peggy.  You didn't wanna get up! You kept saying that you needed to stay and lay with mommy and you couldn't leave me. You even hid under the covers next to me to not go! I helped convince you to go and you could just come back to me. As you gave in you fell down and hugged my face and told me you loved me. :) then before you left I said I loved you and you told me "ill come. Take care of you mahmee!"

You're my boy.

Also...you're afraid of crickets lately. And it makes me smile because I'm learning you. Kisses and loves.
Mahmee.

Jude cuddling with maya :)

:)

Talking about maya.

Hi my babies.
Today juse walked up to me holding pictures of the sonogram we had. He looks at me and sweetly says "can we talk about maya mahmee?"
Then around naptime jude leans in and tells maya "I love you maya." Then got so excited "mahmee! Maya said 'i love you too'!"

I can hardly wait to see you two together!

You're already friends. Love you.

"Hey mahmee, wanna hear a joke?"

Today on word world duck says "how do ducks learn to fly?......they just...'wing it'!" You laughed. Then turned to me. "Hey mahmee. Wanna hear a joke?" I nodded. You continued. "How do we drink water?" You wait, then continue. "You just...cup it!". 

It may not have been funny, but you knew wings were for flying...like cups to water. :) you're so smart! Proud of you!

:)you're just sooo cute!

Watching tangled

Its a lazy morning. Breakfast of "crunchy flakes" and cuddling watching your fave movie :) love you buddy. I don't know how I lived without you half the time.

:]

i made you a twitter. to catalog the fun things you say. 

Toddlerwords. 

makes me giggle the world gets to know you in more ways than one. 

LOVE YOU!

also...youre obsessed with bacon now. 

for real.

"im not chicken!!"

Today. While talking to maya. Daddy and mahmee decided that we were "hungry for little tiny basketball players." And we pretended to eat you. Your response?

"Don't eat me guys!! I'M NOT CHICKEN!"

You're so funny.

Heyyy

Where's mahmee supposed to lay?! Looks like I'm on my own tonight :)

My babies.

Oh my babies. This is one of just many moments I'm going to enjoy. Both my babies cuddling with me :) I love it!

for you both.

i wrote this after being inspired byh one of my favorite philosophers and poets, T.S. eliot. yes, mama is a hippy. 

i love my babies. 

i hope to never forget

the smell of his room

when i sneak in to

bring the covers to his chin

and i hope to never forget the feeling of his weight

in all of its fullness

complete in my arms

i hope to never forget his scent, lingering on his skin

nor forget breathing it in deeply

while he submits to an unassuming embrace

his face, 

doubled over in cries

the pain he feels

tears in his eyes

i made it right. i made it right. 

i hope to never forget

how i made him, yet he completed me. 

i hope he can only understand the same. 

when i am gone, and all that are left are words. 

words from others, some fabrications because of the loss, 

i hope he can tell the truth

that my life began at the first hello.

my life never ends because of him. 

words that i have said, that mean twice as more as they appear. 

words i leave for him. 

words of stories told.

words, memories. 

i hope he has more than words. 

in the night, when he sleeps

i hope he is awakened by my presence slipping into his room to make sure he is covered. 

in the morning, before he wakes, 

he feels my lips upon his forehead because i simply must.

in the day, feel my arms, because i cant go so long without his touch.

infinite love, he will one day understand, when his hello is said, and his life begins. 

what a lonely love, one that cannot be expressed. but joyous he will know. 

joyous he will know. 

Heyyy

Where's mahmee supposed to lay?! Looks like I'm on my own tonight :)

My babies.

Oh my babies. This is one of just many moments I'm going to enjoy. Both my babies cuddling with me :) I love it!

My boys

Make my life complete. I love you both very much and it makes my heart smile whenever I see things like this. You're wonderful!