first time bowling. :]

by frame four...you were done, as in, you didnt want to do it anymore. in all fairness we had a busy morning, and you only slept an hour. but still. :] i did manage to highlight the one game we played as a family ;] we celebrated memorial day; a day set a side for those who served in our military who have passed away protecting us. i celebrated those wonderful men and women by doing what they died for...living! you are my life and spending time with you and daddy is PERFECT.

family day.

we tried the batting cages. but they were closed. so we went to the park instead :]

Family picture!

you decided to plug my nose and then kiss me :]
"come on mahmee!"
i dont know what this one was above here, but the face is SO cute.
you were climbing on the swinging steps, you call them "monkey stairs" and you got scared and reached to me "help me mahmee! helppp!"

love you.

punches!

"mahmee i like these new punches! these punches are nice! did daddy get new punches?"

"what baby?"

"punches mahmee. daddys new punches!"

"what are punches baby?"

"oh you mean bedsheets baby?"

"yeah, punches. sheets!"

love you sweets.

Love you.

Took you to see a band play live and you heard your fave song. The "hey hey song" soul sister by train. :)

These are a hit with you little dude

I'm tired of crappy pacifiers. I want solid colors...sports ones will do :)

:)

Not amused mahmee.

But I did pee in the "terlette". :)

Love. And cheetos.

On our trip to the beach

Mahmee and uncle and donni mea got a flat tire from a mean ole pothole in the road. :( we couldn't see the beach but we walked while they fixed my car! You made lots of funny faces. More pictures to come!

You're so beautiful

I love your faces.

Just the 2 of us...for YOU buggy

Just the two of us, yeah
Just the two of us
Just the two of us

From the first time the doctor placed you in my arms
I knew I'd meet death 'fore I'd let you meet harm
Although questions arose in my mind, would I be man enough?
Against wrong, choose right and be standin' up
From the hospital that first night
Took a hour just ta get the car seat in right
People drivin' all fast, got me kinda upset
Got you home safe, placed you in your basinette

That night I don't think one wink I slept
As I slipped out my bed, to your crib I crept
Touched your head gently, felt my heart melt
'Cause I know I loved you more than life itself

Then to my knees, and I begged the Lord please
Let me be a good daddy, all he needs
Love, knowledge, discipline too
I pledge my life to you, uh

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

Five years old, bringing comedy
Everytime I look at you I think man a little me just like me
Wait an see gonna be tall makes me laugh 'cause
You got your dads ears an all
Sometimes I wonder, what you gonna be?
A General, a Doctor, maybe a MC
Haha, I wanna kiss you all the time
But I will test that butt when you cut outta line

Trudat uh uh uh why you do dat?
I try to be a tough dad, but you be makin' me laugh
Crazy joy, when I see the eyes of my baby boy
I pledge to you, I will always do
Everything I can show you how to be a man
Dignity, integrity, honor an' I don't mind if you lose
Long as you came with it an' you can cry, ain't no shame it it

It didn't work out with me an your mom
But yo, push come to shove you was conceived in love
So if the world attacks, and you slide off track
Remember one fact, I got your back

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

It's a full time job to be a good dad
You got so much more stuff than I had
I gotta study just to keep with the changin' times
101 Dalmations on your CD-ROM
See me, I'm tryin to pretend I know
On my PC where that CD go

But yo, ain't nuthin' promised, one day I'll be gone
Feel the strife, but trust life just go on
But just in case, it's my place to impart
One day some girl's gonna break your heart
And ooh ain't no pain like from the opposite sex
Gonna hurt bad, but don't take it out on the next son

Throughout life people will make you mad
Disrespect you and treat you bad
Let God deal with the things they do
'Cause hate in your heart will consume you too
Always tell the truth, say your prayers
Hold doors, pull out chairs, easy on the swears
You're living proof that dreams come true
I love you and I'm here for you, uh

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

Just the two of us
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

Just the two of us, I'm always here for you
Whatever you need just call on me
Whatever you need I'll be there for anytime
You and I

Just the two of us
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
You and I, just the two of us

Just the 2 of us....for daddy

I see the crystal raindrops fall
And the beauty of it all
when the sun comes shining through
To make those rainbows in my mind
When I think of you some time
And I want to spend some time with you

Just the two of us
We can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Building castles in the sky
Just the two of us
You and I

We look for love, no time for tears
Wasted waters's all that is
And it don't make no flowers grow
Good things might come to those who wait
Not to those who wait to late
We got to go for all we know

Just the two of us
We can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Building castles in the sky
Just the two of us
You and I

I hear the crystal raindrops fall
On the window down the hall
And it becomes the morning dew
Darling, when the morning comes
And I see the morning sun
I want to be the one with you

Just the two of us
We can make it if we try
Just the two of us
Just the two of us
Building big castles way on high
Just the two of us
You and I
Just the two of us
Let's get together, baby
Just the two of us

We can make it
Just the two of us
We can make it
Just the two of us
Just the two of us we can make it

:)

A little backstory....lately you've been tellin mahmee and daddy that you like to be called julian. When we ask "do you like jude?" "NO! ITS JULIAN!" "Do you like judith?" "NO ITS JULIAN! "Do you like judebug?" "NO ITS JULIAN!". This is a daily conversation.

But tonight was different.

We laid down together to watch "the singing show" (glee) together.

I asked "who is your mahmee?" You replied "rachel!" I said "do you love your mahmee?" You responded "yes I love my rachel." This brought such a smile. I love being yours and you, mine. I said "I love you so much julian." To which you turned to me and said "no...you can call me judith."

I'm the only one that does. I knows its a girly name. But it just slips.

Regardless. You're my judith.
And I love you.
And you're sad right now that you can't find woody. "I can't find her." You say. I better go help you find woody :)

I'm in love witchoo lil boy.

seattle :]

seeing our friends and loved ones is wonderful.

and im loving every second spent with you. thank you for being my son.

even as your whimpering downstairs because you dont wanna go to bed and you wanna be in the "wing room" i love you sooooo much.

daddy is at a concert tonight, and im flying solo. i have experience in this area, but still. i miss him. being with him makes my heart soar. ive missed this time over the past year. we are and have always supposed to have been a family. forever baby.

trip to the Zoo!

or as you keep calling it... the "circus". we had fun. we went with Ayla and Hedder and Angela and Purple Gramma. we had a great time. just a few more days til our vacation with clifton and carrie and the kids in seattle. can hardly wait to spend more time with you! love you baby boy.

Gilbert House.

Mahmee had a rough day. thinking about things was stressing me out, and daddy gave me a nudge. the pass to gilbert hosue childrens museum and a couple hours with you little boy....it didnt make the stresses go away...but it reminded me that no matter HOW bad it is...im alive...im your mother and im part of a dynamic family of beautiful people. i love you and thank you for saving me from my thoughts that day.

more park fun :]

you are the most handsomest little boy, the smartest, funnest and most amazing. youre perfect...for me :] two words for you baby: Soul. Mate.

family

The world knows my love for you.

so i cant figure out how to rotate this in blog.

if this is ever in a book. just turn the book upside down. :]

Devin playing ball with you :]

more of devin playing.

your cousin loves you so much and you love him so much also.

Tio y Mama

Lady Jessica and Mahmee

we have lots of adventures together...and i love my new camera daddy helped me get, now i can capture them beautifully!

one day at the park :]

from playing tag with cousin devin, to sliding with friend Boston, to crying that the basketball hoop was too high and you couldnt slam dunk...i LOVED seeing your personality and the person you are shine through. ill upload some more pics.